I dislike anticipation of distress. It annoys me and stresses me out more. I have honestly no idea what I'm doing right now, what I feel, what I want. I just want things to be simple. I know it's not as simple as that.

Distance shouldn't matter and it probably won't but I think I'm just sad that I can't depend on you after a long day, that I can't come home to you.

I wonder if things will change. If things already have. I don't really want to make these decisions. But there's not really a choice is there?