im bacck from m'sia. I really had superb fun la this time round. i enjoyed la. From the movie to the visting. The mid night soccer and me actually learning it. Watching the veterns play and escaping back home from that lame club. And definately the rubiks cube! I finally started talking to my cousin, Kishen who barely spoke to anyone. He was the one who taught me a lil wit bit of soccer. Okay la. i can at least stop the ball and kick it back rite. heh. Rubiks cube also cause of him. either way, i finally solved it. see got pattern also.

Well, no need to say, but somehting has pissed me off. Either way i just think a few darlings should understand the meanings of the next few words. If your minute brain still doesnt understand, please, just please ask someone and stop making a fool of yourself.

Friend
friend [frend]
noun (plural friends)
1.
somebody emotionally close to another: somebody who has a close personal relationship of mutual affection and trust with another


Trust
trust [trust]
noun (plural trusts)
1.
reliance: confidence in and reliance on good qualities, especially fairness, truth, honor, or ability


Disappointment
dis·ap·point·ment [dìssə póyntmənt](plural dis·ap·point·ments)
noun
1.
feeling of being let down: a feeling of sadness or frustration because something was not as good, attractive, or satisfactory as expected, or because something hoped for did not happen

so my dear darlings
I've lost my trust in your friendship. It's to move on .

As a parting goodbye, FUCK off.

Much Love darlings. not.

bitter post with a real need for release.

Talk about the end of a long weekend. I'm talking light years long. Basically, had a lot of open house duties that really wore me out. I'm like so super tired to elaborate la. But i had fun with CCC on Saturday and Sunday. Although i dint know anyone there, i just started crapping and like making friends. ha ha. Today was like also fun. Almost zero to none levels of awkwardness. Duty was with Ben and Guru. One person who i knew well enough to crap with and one person he knew well enough to crap with. So yeah. ha ha. Was really crapping the most day with these two and Irika.

Met sapnaa like after duty and IPDBMS talk. Was like slacking and talking for awhile la. Must start meeting up with my friends la. Never see them so long. Anyway. She passed my birthday present. So sweet of her. Bought me this pair of heart shaped earrings. Damn freak sweet lar. Thanks babe.

Anyway. Got my 2nd maths UT grade. hahahahahaha. Got a A. either i deserved that A lah OK. I study hard. Need to focus a lot on my other module also. namely enterprise and science. Gotta bring my grades up. Must maintain my Culture and Cognitive. Nvm. I gonna relax for the next week or so , then gonna start banging hard for my Last round of UT's. The academic year is ending soon. Not to mention the year itself it ending. Time files man.

I'm not longer your little puppet for your convenience. miss being your friend. don't miss liking you.

I wish i could get it but i don't feel so bad about not getting it. Maybe i realise that i don't really care but at the same time I'm thinking what if I'm lying to myself. I'm thinking screw wit. I just feel so tired lately.

Just had presentation. I dun think i did that well. Faci's feedback wasn't that good.But what to do. Haiz. Hols next week. Cant wait.

Where are the friends who promised to always be there? I was always there for you when she ignored you or just plain couldn't be bothered. Now that she's apologized and always gibbering to you, you've just so conveniently forgotten me. I cant wait to leave this place. Go somewhere , where i know that friends are so hard to depend on. Forget me all you must la. But just fuck off. When she is off talking to another guy and ignoring you , please, just don't call me when you need someone to be there for you. Cause I'm sick of being used as a floor mat for the past 5 years with you people.

you may be the prettier or more handsome one.
You may be the one everyone want to talk to,
wants a piece of.
the thing that honestly pissed me off,
is that you could have left me alone ,
but you didn't.
You walk into my life.
And after years i realised the pain you've caused.
All the time i forgived you.
You may be the prettier or more handsome one.
But at the end of the day,
I'm the one who's walking away.
When you come back and beg,
I really won't give 2 hoots enough to even look back.

Sorry my darling but you just tore the last string that held our friendship together
this is where i draw the line. We will still go out and we will still talk. But there's now a time where i stop turning to you'll with my problems.

I'll see you'll from the higher wave. give it time. And i will.

I'm feeling so stressed and troubled by so many shit. I tried writing it out one by one. But the words just couldnt come out of my finger. I'm so tired. Tired of so many things. I'm emotionally and Physically drained. I just feel like sitting down in a corner and crying. I just feel so sad about everything. its not the materialistics that are bothering me. Its just i dunno. Fuck it la. I cant stand it anymore. I don't Know what i'm gonna do.

Finaly a friday that i can end in peace. Feeling so sleepy. Can't wait to go home and sleep though. Thoughts of the future are scaring me. Haiz.

Enough of randomness.

I'm scared to go to year 2. Really really scared

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I got it for you. I don't really like watching it. But i got it for you. And now your telling me it annoying cause I didn't get everything.

why do i even bother.

you dun understand me. or my pain.

In a sad mood. Missing alot of times and people. Hoping for the best.

LOVES.

Happy 100 Hundredth post:)
to me

I totally sleep deprived.

Feeling very random. Wanna go gym today. Wish i got the True Yoga thing. But fuck it. Never mind. I utilise my fav yishun gym. I miss so many classes last week. And I'm truly getting fearful for my grades. I'll be damn dissapointed if i do worse that last semester. haiz. gotta send my MC and grand dads deaths cert in. Maybe they wont take those absence in count. I'm looking for a job BTW. A admin one.

Already done module selection for next year. Hope i get it. Taking the IPDBMS prep selection. If i don't get that, I'm doing Med tech.

Debate is so dead.dying of in fact

I hate being treated like crap.

I miss talking nonsense with you. When it was just us. Before We grew apart.

Before we tore apart.

before we grew apart.