They say it’s better to have love and lost, then to have not loved at all. I thought what i had was love. and maybe i do. but i wonder, if i had never felt it, would the sense of loss and hurt be this intense? why would i want something with such a yearning if ive never had before. i could pretend and think i needed it. but ill never know the extend of my need if i had never had it.

But that said, i dont regret us. i regret us for the pain im in now. but i dont regret every memory i had with you. and indeed, i do want more memories. but thats something out of my control.

I’m putting everything away. all the physical reminders that you were once part of my life. and we’ll try being friends. but what happens then i wouldnt know.

for things to work, you need two things; chemistry and timing. i know we had the former. its just a pity the latter is never right.

i miss you baby. i hope youre safe. i’ll look forward to seeing again. but now we just mere friends.