I know i should stop dwelling on this. just move on. but 5 months was not a short time. 5 months, and i bared my soul to you. but you dont want me anymore so we’re done. we still want to be friends. and that i do too. but it still hurts. i miss you much. i miss being in your arms and the smell of you. i miss the way we do stupid things and watch how i met you mother. i miss you. so damn much. but we’re over. and like you said , we dont know what the future holds.

And maybe everybody is right. i should just stop trying. ive never begged. but i did for you. i feel ashamed of doing that. no one is indispensible. and neither are you. i miss you so much. but we’re done. and maybe when you come back in two weeks, itd be easier to be friends. i just hope i stop missing you. and stop wanting you by then.

It just doesn't matter anymore what i want.

i just have to get over it. and remember that nothing matters. just me.