You and I both know that actions and words dont go hand in hand.

cant wait to watch the match. football deprived child i am.

Haven't blog in a while now have i? well, certain key updates, I've left Melbourne and but will be back soon enough! am travelling up the coast , in Sydney and next stop gold coast! cant effing wait.

spent a awesome possum Christmas in a apparently typical aussie manner = loads of food on the grill and a madly sweltering day! geesh, i miss Melbourne where the sun doesn't shine. lol. ill survive though. went a did a bit of boxing day shopping in this madly packed city. i heart supre! finally got my jeggings and cropped sweater. might i be brave enough to wear the sweater out on it own? maybe? i don't know. i feel like a fat cow but i wonder whose fucking business but mine is it how i look. i might wear it when I'm chilling . i intend to start running when I'm back in sg. wont have nutting better to do any way! healthy eating the moment i set foot in Mel again!

oh and i got a hooded dress for 5 bucks. praise the lord for sales!

what is wrong with me?

First i meet mr perfect who i loss contact with and never to be found again.

then i meet mr too young who fun but not my ideal guy whose has yet to reply to my email.

after which i meet mr engaged whose more then happy to chat and give web kisses.

and now i meet mr semi perfect but not as exciting as mr perfect but he is fucking married.

good god. what is wrong with me?!

and these last two men. what scum bags! they didn't even mention that they were married or engaged. tsk.

all i wanted was to be able to blog from live writer normally. now I've landed myself a new live writer that looks like word and a new msn that makes it potentially unsafe to chat with randoms because it give both my first and last names. bleh. me dont like.  

Anyway, thus, me being the ever secretive cyber nut case, has decided to delete my social network sites that i do partake activities in anymore, eg. Friendster(stone ageee) and hi5(failed network:/). I've decided since my longer rants and personal aspirations are stuck on fb and my blog, these shall remain private. twitter however, shall be my free voice to talk to people but fret not, i will be careful in what i say.

I get my results tonight! totally freaking out! well, not exactly. I'm just scared. i dont know what to do if i screw up. but i wont , i think. i worked hard…i think. too many i think and maybes. sighhhh!

Anyway, heading to melbourne central with menaka, neha, naz and saretta. people I've gotten to know in this one year at flats although these friendships were only forged in the last month or so.

It weird, I've met so many people this year. some nice and funny, some inspiring and some whose characters dont match mine. but theres also those who i thought we’d be friennds forever and those i thought i wont be with but tables turn, people change and friendships no longer become the crust of the world we once thought was so important.

1 year. away from home. looking after myself and dealing with the worlds nastiness. i might have lost brain cells along the way but i dont regret anything I've done. mistakes… consequences that I've accepted. errors… with mends on their way. and moulding my own character. not in someone elses shadow. not hiding behind familial responsibilities. i dont want this journey to end, and with some luck it wont.

I've fallen in love with Manchester united again after like 10 years? i swear, they are freaaking awesome! more than that im crazy over nemanja vidic and rio ferdinand. please people, no need to rub it in my face that they are married with kids! im well aware of that fact but it doesnt change the truths that they are oh so fucking hottt!

xoxo.