i don't understand what's going on you hostility? fine. whatever. but i don't understand it. i have issues too but i fucking try to be nice. So what fuck is wrong with you. Are you that infantile that you to give attitude this way? fuck off. if you think you are better off behaving this way, just flying fuck off. And if i were you, ill really try to stop being a bloody bitch cause seriously it’s so wtf. And i don't keep quiet this long. You’re just asking for trouble.

I feel so overwhelmed. i don't know what's with them. I feel like an bloody idiot about the whole tutor and name shit and i feel like fucking crap and its eating me up. How the fuck do i stop caring. how to hell am i supposed to let go off things and be human about it.

I feel like going home. I really feel like it. the stress here, i wish i had a way out of it.

but no. i have to stay. its not supposed to be like that. its supposed to get better. 

so why does it seem to be getting worse?