Im hating myself now. My hard hardwork has gone down the drain. All because i have no motivation or discipline. I put back all the weight i loss and i hate it. Its now 11.13 pm , I feel like going for a run but I'm not fancying the dark path tonight. I am going to wake up at 5 and go for a run tomorrow. I must do it. I will do it. I need to get fit.

Ten reasons why i want to be fit.

1) I want to actively take up a sport and i have to be in shape to start

2) I want to be a doctor. I want to preach what i say. And it all starts now.

3) I want to be able to wear skinnys and look skinny

4) I want to know what it feel like to be underweight(long way to go)

5) I want to look good.

6) I want to be able to buy nicer cheaper clothes.

7) I want to be able to wear jeans and have no extras hanging over

8) I don't want to get the WTF look when i dress up

9) I want to ensure i fit nicely into the clothes i bought for aussie.

10) I want to fit my frame

Btw, If any fuckers decide to comment anything nasty, rude, impolite, fucked up or lame; you will get diarrhea for the rest of your life and have insomnia and grow to be be a fat fugly arsehole who'll be so ashamed of daylight that you’d die choking on your own vomit. I mean it.

Any darlings who want to help me please do but in a non insulting way. Like making dates for gymming with me. Saf, didn't you want a gymming partner?