I’m sitting here waiting for my cousin, aunt , uncle and grand uncle to show up. I feel like sleeping but i think it’d be nicer to no be groggy when they arrive.

Its been forever since i blogged and i guess this time is the perfect opportunity right.

The routine is the same except i have to work harder for school. I just feel so exhausted and defeated. I gonna start exercising for that too! I think while exercising my mind was more alert and i did better in school. Now I'm just a loserish slacker:/

We all need that fighting spirit. It keeps us going. We have a goal and it help us to forget the shit that happens all around us. To remind us that this is only the journey and not the destination. I want to be a doctor. I am lazy like crap. I just need to remember that Dr. in front of my name. That feel of achieving my target. I need to have it in my face. I cant expect myself to remember it. We all make needless excuses. But this is now. this is here. and we are only going to get one chance. I cant screw this up and i wont. I will study into the night if i have to. I will exercise at midnight if it helps. But this is my chance. Nothing is going to chance that.

Watch me. I know I'm going to be the next best thing.

Its been forever and ever since i blogged! actually a week la. But i feel so weird. Like something im supposed to do but cant.

Haiz. ill blogg more later.,

I just decided that statistics is not my forte.

NOOOOO!!!!! i just blog so much and it got deleted. sad case.

Maybe i talked to much shit in it. Well ot summarised that is im still sick and i did some shopping yesterday.

blehh.

‘I love you’ has been worn out but the simplicity of its usage.

Yet those 3 words can direct and dictate the simplicity of our lives.

Which essentially has never been simple.

Does ‘I love you’ even mean anything anymore?

So, like everyone knows because of all my moaning and moping and coughing and sneezing, I've been sick since Monday. Well, I've been living off cough syrup since and i finally caved yesterday and went to the polyclinic. Well it rocked to go the the polyclinic with a sore throat and phlegm, because they just want to get you out of there faster! So i spent at most a hour there. Which is amazing compared to the usual 3 hour wait. So turns out i have a very inflamed throat and a lot of phlegm.  I was expecting to be spent home with cough syrup and a days MC. I got a bunch of phlegm meds and antibiotics (and the cough syrup) and 2 days mc. So i had a break on wed, thurs, friday, sat and sun. Fives days. long huh.

But down side is that I'm missing two of my first lessons. On Monday i have to submit my mc and apply for loa. I shall work hard to redeem myself for this two lessons!

On the up side i managed to catch another 2 koffee with karan episodes. One was Sharukh Khan, Kajol, Rani mukherjee. And the other was Sharukh Khan and Kajol. They are like brilliantly funny! I remember my first ever Hindi movie. Kuch Kuch Hota Hai. I must have been about 8 or 9. Me and my sisters went and watched it. I have no idea where but i think it may have been at woodlands cathay! It was such a brilliant movie with a sweet motive and a lot of comedy. I think that movie has started my whole Hindi movie watching spree. Its not like the french movies I've watch. I think so far I've only watched two. One was les choristes. The other was in lit class in mi which i cant rmb:/ . But Hindi movies, I would watch maybe 3 of 4 a year but now i just am so addicted to it. I want to learn the language. So I'm watching more Hindi movies. Good excuse right! LOL.

Another productive thing i did yest, was to arrange my bangles for my sari and my Punjabi suit. My sari is orange and beige with silver sequence. I wanted to wear like an armload of thin silver bangles. Seeing as how i would have to buy the bangles and spend *oh gosh* MONEY, i decided to make do with chunkier bangles. It looks dull on its own but i think with the sari it would look fab.

Then for my Punjabi suit, its very Indian like bangles. typical kinda thing with loads of colors.  Funny thing is that my suit is hot pink and pale blue and i used colors like pale pink, fushia, turquoise and some gold to get a nice match.

I cant wait for diwali. CANT!

16 weeks of school plus the 3 week break. 19 weeks till i leave.

Today is the end of week 1. That makes it 18 weeks to my new adventure.

After about exactly a year I'm back to a 4 day week cycle. Boy am i glad for that! modules have definitely gotten tougher and I'm looking at this last semester 2days at a time. I have to start studying because trust me, i have no confidence at all!

Anyway, i submitted my application form for monash yesterday. Now its to wait for my offer letter from them. CANT WAIT! Moving of from one phase of life to another is absolutely terrifying but so damn exciting. A new adventure. Its not going going to be easy but 10 year down the road, i don't want to think back and wonder why i didn't take this opportunity.

Once in a lifetime, a special friend comes knocking and I had to just answer the door.

Another anyway, there are 9 of us going, so we’ll probably be sharing a flat like 5 and 4 la. hopefully everything goes smoothly.

I spent the last 3 day being sick and drinking a bottle of cough syrup. Its killing me. So today i spend the entire day in front of the laptop watching various funny videos like a kid who was to to say ‘fire truck’ and he goes ‘fire ….’ you should watch it yourselves

Then i watch koffee with karan : esha doel and shahid kapoor.

I know I'm a loser on so many levels. I feel it. But i just want to be me. Is that so hard?

School has started! It sucks. Bleh. okok. I like my class. Its not too bad. I had neuro bio yest. Nightmare. I'm submitting my ipbms application form today. Completely forgot to bring it:/. Ok. This post has absolutely no flow. I'm sick. can’t blame me.

Anyway, I really miss driving lessons. They were fun but its kinda nice to drive as a qualified driver except i think that my sis and dad probably get a heart attack every time I'm behind the wheel. Sigh. It will get better after awhile. I mean I've only had my license for slightly less than a week.

I’m hoping time flies. This anticipation is killing me.

itchy throat!!

I'm going to write this blog post finish in a minute! That all I'm taking.

I've been baking diwali cookies. And we only have one more to do. pineapple tarts!

Sometimes i wonder why i don't have anything important to say. Everyone seems to have something very thoughtful to say. But i know i speak from my heart and that is all that matters right?

Damn. 2minutes already.

Btw, this is a very long post. You have been warned!

Before i go on jabbering about the end of this chapter, i just have a few updates:)

1. I got my driving license with a whooping 8 points! could have gotten four but i forgot to down gear on the slope coming back to BBDC.
2. I got 5 A’s and a B+ this semester
3. Made it into Roll of honors with is always a good thing.
4. This brings my total up to 12 A’s which means that i will be graduating with a diploma with distinction. WooHoo!!

Somewhere after my birthday last year i went to enroll at BBDC to take my driving license. I was somewhat scared and very much nervous that i would be the kind of person who was excellent at theoretical stuff but cannot make it at practical’s. Guess what? I was right! I started driving exactly 6 month ago. My PDL expires today, and that how i know it was exactly 6 months ago. I don’t really remember most of my instructors. But Somewhere in June, thank god for the early booking’s i made, I started to get my group instructors. If my memory doesn’t fail me, it was Kunalan who i got first. The moment i saw an Indian name there i was like ‘aiyooo’.  Contrary to what i believed, that was the start of having awesome instructors for the next 3 months. At that point my driving was still, no other words to describe, SHITE! I had a few instructors whose teaching ill never forget.

Akbar Ali, Kunalan, Eusoff and Nazeer.

Raja and Raj i didn’t have too often. And nothing thattttt eventful happen. Hahaha. They were really great too either way.

Nazeer was a really really awesome instructor. I tell you, listening to his comments, even i felt my driving improve! He’s really motivating, and i can definitely say he’s a very skilled instructor. But i only had most of his lessons towards the end. Which is actually good because i basically did a lot of fine tuning with his help. I think he was the only instructor i still have manam’s with. Hopefully. Except for the point when he told me about lateral and vertical lane change. And i was like ‘huh? got two type of lane change?’ Two days before my test. sigh.

Eusoff. Haiz. I got no manams left.( like no more face left la). He was a combination instructor! HAHA! ok, i mean like he’s a really good instructor whose strict , focus and yet funny also. I’ll never forget him because he was the first every instructor i cried with! yes people, like i said, no face left. (it gets worse btw). Well What happen was that i kept forgetting to change gear. So he kept pushing it to neutral. At one point , the car made a such loud grinding sound that i panicked! So i changed gear and thenn i started tearing. Then by the time he realized and asked, i started sobbing. a lot. I tried laughing but that came out a sob too! And I think he panicked too! haha. I mean how often do you come across a girl who at that point seems like she’s sobbing for no apparent reason. But yeah. He was nice about it. That wasn’t the reason my manam’s flew away. It was because dear Eusoff, went and told the other instructors about it. It took forever for them to stop making fun of that la. But for one thing, if i ever drive a manual car again, I swear I’ll never forget to change gear:P.

Kunalan was one of my fav instructors too! He was one of the instructors i got rather often. He didd scold me a lot because i didd do a lot of stupid things. haha. But he has a nice system. He’ll scold, then he’d say something nice so that you don’t feel too bad. In a way his way of teaching helped. I mean I didn’t do any of those mistakes during the test at all. Which is awesome. He was one of the instructors i could talk non stop to! You could complain about anything to him and he’d say something to cheer you up and not make the whole thing seem so bad. I think my last lesson with Kunalan, I was making a lot of silly mistakes! Like i just had no control over what i was doing. I think it was the panic that the test was so near! But I got really sad and then i got scared then I'd fail. And then what do you think Hema did. Yes. she started crying. again. Its painful you know. I just want to roll my eyes at myself. :/

Akbar Ali was like my own personal instructor! I don’t know why, but i almost always got his lessons! Which is actually very good also because he was an awesome instructor. He would always start the lesson very seriously, then after explaining to me what we’re supposed to do, then he’ll start crapping. HAHA. He was funny. The stories he would share would keep me laughing till my rib cage hurt. I could ask him extremely random questions and he wouldn’t laugh and he would actually answer them. Okay maybe sometimes he might give a lame answer but he’d almost always tell the truth after that. Like for example, did you know that motorbikes had horns? i didn’t. Till he answered my question that is. He never scolded me. But i know he was probably doing mental eye rolls at all my stupid things. He likes to think that I cried in his lessons cause he thinks ‘I look at you, already you start crying’ . NOT TRUE OKAY! Just happens, that I was stressed in those lessons.

Basic point is that these people may have just been the instructors who taught me driving. But they were also people who shared experiences, gave me knowledge and molded me in some form or another. They may have only been in my life to teach me how to work a car but I’ve learnt from them how to talk and not to be afraid of how i feel.( i mean come on! I cried like 4 times la). They gave me confidence and have taught me that although there is a line between people, we don’t have to be rigid about it!

As i close this 6 month long chapter, I close it with lots of love, gratitude, skill(they definitely will be glad to hear it) and memories. loads and loads of it. =)

p.s, I did warn you’ll that this would be long long post:P.