It's monday morning!

I want to sleep.There two UTs this week and i'm super scared. stress la. stress.

Wednesday i got driving. I pray pray pray i dun get the creep. But if get then nvm la. haiz.
hopefully can get akbar ali, then he'll let me practice the next subject.

lets hope i'm lucky this weeekkkk

Im addicted to crazy taxi
I finish fYPP
weeeeee

Gonna study for med micro now
boo hoo

200
-100
- 50
- 20
= 30

That is how much i have left for this week and next week.
100 to clear my debts with my sis
50 for concession cos ill die without it
20 cos i drew it out just now. Will survive me this week at least. i have 17 left. so i can spend 7 today later cos i need to get some sort of fuel into me before driving. 5 for tmr and 5 for Friday.
Then next week can survive. As long as i wake up on time the whole week.

I am going to stop obsessing about driving. I'll enjoy when i enjoy it and if i don't i won't.

I skipped half of school today. I'm going to study tonight.

I hope to go for a run tomorrow.( i just had to spell check "tomorrow" forgot that it was a double r)

I have driving this Wednesday.

I have driving next Wednesday.

I am not canceling my driving lessons.

I think black and white photos are the bomb.

People replying to my msn nick are lame. Actually there was only 1 person who replied. And because it was THAT person it was lame. Booo hooo to you.

I want ALL my nails to grow long? any tips? im doing the garlic, sally Hansen and vitamin B thing.

Is it just me or is this post bordering on blahh blahh blahh

Its 8FEARKING 46 am. and im awake.

I slept very early last nigh like 7 plus. hahahaha. so i woke up at 5.05 and couldn't sleep back. So i stoned around and went for my run at 6. This makes running 3 times this week yayyy!!! I had one meal only yesterday. no snack. Only lunch that i didn't finish. So im getting kinda hungry. But waiting for every one else at home to wake up and get ready. I felt like going driving cos im so bored. But didn't have slot:( .

Next driving lesson on Wednesday. I wonder who i'll get?hmmm.

I got my GAMSAT booklet a few day back. I guess its kinda hard but i think i can be more prepared when i have a rough guide. Ill ge more next year.

Im watching DAFFY DUCK.

nvm random.

Next week im gonna start studying fo my 3 uts that ill have in the following week. Then Im also gonna start studying for ut 3. must do well.

Would you believ i got a A for my lab management UT!!!! i can't believe it. I didnt even believe half the things i wrote.

S course and crank course!
I nvr mount curb. woooohoooo!!!

I'm still getting over the fact that i ditched sch for driving. So fun fun fun. I am just gonna skip once a week to my hearts content. weeeee.

I hate the fact that exams are so near.

I think I've already moved on.

I just have to let go.

I'm so confused. And i don't know what to do. You keep telling me different things and now I'm even more confused. I'm just going to stick my original plan because doing things your way and my way is very different. And not that I'm not grateful, but waiting for you to figure things out is making things more difficult for me. I'd rather try and take this journey alone. You're welcome to help but please don't feel compelled to. I don't want you to hope that they will pay for me. Because the reality is nobody is willing to pay. So let me pay my own way through. And if you keep telling that money is an issue but telling me to not let money come in the way then you are just contradicting yourself. So let me do this. Let me figure my way out. Let me work my dream. And don't confused the plans you have for me with the plans i have for me.

This is my plan. It may change along the way as more doors open up but lets assume the doors are bolted shut.

1. finish my diploma
2. do ipbms and get my Monash BSC biomed sci in a years time
3. work for a year, save my money, Sit for GAMSAT.
4. Get in medical sch with savings for living expenses for at least 24 months.
5. take a loan for tuition fees.

This is my basic plan. Everyone can tell me how difficult it is, but trust me , I'm not plunging unknowingly.

This is my plan. The three of you'll can help me but i understand and i hope that i can do this on my own.

People, I'm aiming for the stars. And if i drop, im just going to get up and do it all again with no regrets.