Edit: I have one true dream. like stated in my facebook. Fuck all those other dreams i had. I just want to disappear. I hate this feeling. Like an outsider. I feel like that around people who so called have a purpose. I wish i could go back to secondary school. When the highlight of my life was about how many times a week i saw my crush and what i should wear to the next birthday party. I loved the feeling of having a purpose and doing something meaningful. Yeah, it was just a lame Secretary post in dumb prefect board. But it was I did. It was what I loved. Having meetings with the exco's in our tiny prefect room. Talking rubbish the whole time but still managing to do up the needed work. But now, I feel like as if I'm so desperate to spend time with a friend. (babe, I'm sorry, i know its not your fault and i don't blame you. My brain's just a little twisted. It never worked that well to being with. ) I just feel like crawling under the covers and crying my eyeballs out. But no, I'm waiting for my friend because no matter what that's what friends do. I just wish i could disappear to neverland and never find myself again.
I'm a Loser. Through and through.
And i think I'm back to hating myself.
Note: I'm not slamming anyone in this post. Just myself.
Nobody sees bright skys when it rains:(
