Anger doesn't dissipate as quickly as everyone expects it to

Frustration doesn't happen overnight.

right now i feel so frustrated with everyone for making me be there when the want me to be and once they have something else or someone else or anything else more important i have to wait.
Let's get this clear, I sick of waiting for everyone. But no one is gonna make me stop waiting right.
No matter what nothing will change right.

I was so angry last night, i wrote a really childish post. But now im changing it but guess what I'm still frustrated.

I went for the Australian medicine and health education fair today.

Enquirer about graduate entry medicine. I found out that if i were to get into the monash program, i wouldn't need to do honors. I would need to score really well this year and in my degree. My 1 year that ill be doing my degree if i get ipbms will be X3, my yr3 dip will be X2 and my past year would be X1. I did well enough to get in this past year. Another two years to work on. If i intend to do medicine straight after my degree , i have to sit for my GAMSAT's next year. But i want to work for about a year to save money so that accommodation wise i can survive for 4 years. I would have to maybe look for scholarship or loan to finance the $200,000 that i would need for my tuition fee.

One step at a time Hema.

I am going to do this. Hopefully with a lot of god's help and maybe most likely none of yours since you don't seem too keen.

I'm sorry im such a burden to you. That i always disturb you and irritate you.
But don't worry in slightly less than a year, I'll be gone. And I'll never trouble you again.

I am Sad.
Whats new right?
Its so annoying.

For her fucking advancement you give everything you got, but for me you can barely do that. WTF is wrong with you?She did everything wrong and caused you so many problem but you still care for her so much more than you do me. What the hell did i do? Should i go rob someone or kill someone just so you'd realize that I'm here also? I hate this. I hate life and i wish i was never born. I cant wait to get the hell out of this country and away from you people. All of you'll think that i want to get away because of the country right. think again la. Its because of you people that i want to leave. Leave and never come back.