Theres so much to say but the words dont come.

Why do you always vent out your anger on me? If you dont realise, it's hurting me. So will you please try to no use me as a punching bag at every need.

And you. Why the fuck do i miss you so much? I want to stop missing you. No. I want you to miss me to. I want to know if im waiting for nothing and just a little something. I bought you chocolates from cambodia but im not going to give them to you cause i used my better judgement(not) and open the pack cause i didn't want any excuse to give you something. I miss you. I just want to hear your voice talking to me (msn once every donkey years is not good enough). Playing around and you telling me something and me always telling you that its dumb idea. Like it used to be. I miss you. I wish i could state your name here. But thats too bold a move. Your the guy i crushed on in my latter part of secondary education. Your the guy i confessed my feelings to. Your the guy that made me wonder what love and being loved was like.

double sighs. If you read this. Please forgive me for being so melodramatic, emotional and if your that guy, im sorry im missing you this much.

i guess the words did come afterall.
more updating later. when im in the mood.