Random shuffles=)

Sunday, January 27, 2008

depressed. You wouldnt believe

the tears that roll down ,
made of no substance
yet so full of pain.
I never wanted to drown,
to die down in my own pain.
But in this game of shame,
I'm losing ,giving in to the strain,
These worthless thoughts.
I know better.
I know im worth more nothing.
Then falls disbelieve.
Where now i have succumbed to the believe ,
that i am nothing.Immaterial even.
I wish i believed im something.
I wish i believed.
I wish i could fade away.

Friday, January 25, 2008

THIS.is.what.i.do.when.bordem.sweeps.over.me.

Going to watch 27 dresses today. At vivo. Cant wait.

School has another 5 days to go.

i made up my mind. Im not going K.L

Im staying back and hitting the gym everyday. Like i used to. The weight has to go. Shopping wil surface soon enough. Waiting for my tuition pay. It will give me peace:P. Ipurely using to to shop for tops.

My latest photoshop master piece.

i should start using my talents to my advantage. Maybe start making stickers or t-shirt designs 0r something and sell them. Like doing a special order for people. Will be cool ryte.

Cambodia trip is from 7 to 21. Not 21 to 11. I wont be here for her birthday. Let just see how things go la.

Anyone wants photoshop design like this? just the design alone, and ill charge $2. hahahaha. Ithinki'mserious.opps.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

She's not staying. And i'm rather glad.

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School has another 7 days more. i'm not going to kl. Dont think so.

Friday, January 18, 2008

Another C.

I feel like giving up and throwing the towel in.

Super discouraged

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

i hate this time of year. I dont think before i talk. Argh.

I've calmed down.

I'm closing another chapter.

A 12 year old one.

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I KNOW IM BEING VULGAR. bUT ONLY A FEW UNDERSTAND THE PAIN THAT BITCH CAUSED ME SINCE I WAS 7.

Omkara(2006) was a film shown on art central last week. Basically it’s a story based on Othello. I just loved the movie. It was about these few men who were trying to achieve something political. The result? Jealousy, hatred, scheming and deceiving! Death and loss. I really felt on my toes watching this movie. It was a whole new character to see Saif Ali khan in as opposed to his usual sweet boy next door. Vivek oberoi was as Hawt as he is. There’s not much to say except that you guys should really catch the movie. It really actually so true in life also. You don’t get what you want. You don’t get compensation. You become superbly jealous. Payback is just the extra part.

when i mean in life, i mean in my life.

Friday, January 11, 2008

i missed a UT yesterday. Cognitive. 2nd ut im missing for cognitive. I can confirm that my grades are going to plunge. So will my GPA. I may not get the IPBMS combi that i wanted. But you know what, i ,now, think that its ok that i missed it. So what? i mised it. It doesnt mean that i can achieve my goal. It juwst means that i cant take that route to my goal. I may not get the IPDBMS combi, i may not go to monash, i may not get that perfect 3.9 gpa i was craving but it doesnt mean i wont get my diploma. It doesnt mean i wont get a degree It doesnt mean i wont be succesfull. It just mean i made a mistake. It just means that i have to learn from that mistake and not let it happen again.

when one door closes the world celebrates and a MILLION other doors open.

When we live such fragile lives
It's the best way we survive
I go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you
Tell me all that you've thrown away
Find out games you don't wanna play
You are the only one that needs to know

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

quanto maleducato.

go figure.
Foreign language just expresses so much.

There's only so much i understand from this language. So those who know this language and think my grammar is all wrong or im using the wrong word,screw it.

And no its not vulgar.

The kind of love i want?

The type that takes my soul in its palm and holds it close to its heart just to hear it beat. The type that makes me smile every morning, every day , every night just because i can. The kind that never leaves.

Saturday, January 05, 2008

GOALS.

its time for a change.

If that is what i need to keep my goals alive, to keep me going, then that's what i'll get.even if its you.

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

"kill them alive"

how the hell are you gonna kill something thats dead then?
defeats the whole purpose eh.

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

Good bye 2007.
Hello 2008.

It was time for a change anyway.
Things to look forward to this year
1) I'm turning 18
2)2nd year in RP
3)Intending to kick start plans to get braces.(WILL DO IT)
4)Got a tuition student
5)Going Cambodia in march

This is good enough to keep me going.

I don't believe in looking back and reflecting.When i look up, ahead, all i see is the future. It's only when i stop, come to a complete stop, and turn around, yes, that's when i see the past. Besides, reflection is heartfelt, not words read.