I'm frustrated. Not annoyed. Frustrated. I hate it that my stupid Internet is not working properly. I hate it that I'm not in class. I hate it that she is near me. I hate it that they get what i want . i hate it that i can't get what i want that easily. I hate it that I've so easily been replaced. I hate it that i am not pamper to death. I hate it that I'm so fucking average . I hate it that I'm of no importance. I just hate it that i hate it too. Grr.

I need a savings plan.I need to saving my fucking money that i dunno how but has been just disappearing like water . No more Starbucks that's for one. No more studying outside esp at fast food places or near them. no more bubble ta. No more than spending 1 on drinks in school. No more than 3 dollars a day on food. No shopping till i save my money unless for facial foam etc. No more fast food. Hopefully i can save my money to have about 200$ just before getting each allowance.

I sense more painful and difficult time ahead. But this i the punishment and dicipline i deserve and need.