Revenge aint sweet honey.
Being better than you is fucking sweeter.
You knowing that i am better is bloody hell sweeter.

Btw, i'm over him. Call me a slut. But there are sweeter, nicer, smarter fish then you out there. Hotter ones too. Haiz. I just guess i'm basically able to accept that you're not intrested. And i'm able to understand that i'm not intrested anymore. After so much time, it just seems that you're not as mature as i though you were. Maybe you still are. Maybe its because i'm no longer close to you that i cant see it. Well times have changed. Tides have changed. I think we're moving in oppisite directions. So life as to change. I will find my prince charming.=)

cbox is down...
:(

The tears no longer fall but what has replaced its place is just a greater, stronger never ending pain.

Too many to soon. Don't blame me for my irrationalities. I'm just a confused , girl.

Who is pretty much pmsing . Dont pissed her off.

One of courage is not one with no fears
but
one who stand up to his fears.

I'm not weak because i have fears . It just makes me stronger that i stand up to them.

l8er. when i need you...

stronger than you are

Yesterday was a rather productive day. Haha. Gaya and Mona paid to get my hair re bonded. The re bonding is nice lar except that bunches of my hair was lil damaged. And my fringe is super short.But its nth that cant be fixed lah. Lets just hope i grow into it.The other part of it being a productive day was the wonderful fact that daddy bought me an ipod!!!hahahaha.. cool ryte.. 4gb silver nano , new generation. *grinz*

But i guess that one of the few things that have been going well for me. This week has so far been a week of pain and lotsa pain.

Its not fair that it was you who had to go.You who was the example. You who was the nicest. It just not fair. And although i never talked much to you or anything, you're gonna be one who I'm gonna miss a lot. Ive never felt so much pain. And is true when they say, sometimes the people furthest from you might just be the one who makes the most impact on your life. Rest in peace Annae. You'll always be remembered.

HAwt eh. I know:)

Well today a definite change from yesterday. I guess i must have been having a really really realleeeeeey bad day. But thing are a little changed right? Hols are starting today but got debate training tomorrow. Spent last night with Anni and Gaya. Well , i guess they made me look at things differently. I guess, i know that whatever it is basic thing is I'm not of those lucky ones who gets the things i wish for. I just got to fucking save for them. So here is my top ten things I'm gonna do to get/save money.

1)No more Starbucks. Sorry Gaya ka. But they burn my pocket pretty bad
2)Spending only on one meal throughout the day or 5 bucks in school.
3)Bring a water bottle. Kinda primary school but its one way i could stop spending on water
4)Get my dearest dad to pay for my shampoo and facial wash*grin*
5)Stop my semi-daily bubble tea.
6)No more fast food till i save $300
7)Meeting up to my targets to save a particular amount of money by my next allowance.
8)Find a tuition kid
9)No more buying B'day presents till i have cash
10)Strike up a deal with the Dad to restore certain parts of the house with a budget which i can keep the balance money of.

Sounds like a plan eh?

I'm frustrated. Not annoyed. Frustrated. I hate it that my stupid Internet is not working properly. I hate it that I'm not in class. I hate it that she is near me. I hate it that they get what i want . i hate it that i can't get what i want that easily. I hate it that I've so easily been replaced. I hate it that i am not pamper to death. I hate it that I'm so fucking average . I hate it that I'm of no importance. I just hate it that i hate it too. Grr.

I need a savings plan.I need to saving my fucking money that i dunno how but has been just disappearing like water . No more Starbucks that's for one. No more studying outside esp at fast food places or near them. no more bubble ta. No more than spending 1 on drinks in school. No more than 3 dollars a day on food. No shopping till i save my money unless for facial foam etc. No more fast food. Hopefully i can save my money to have about 200$ just before getting each allowance.

I sense more painful and difficult time ahead. But this i the punishment and dicipline i deserve and need.