NIGHTMARE from hell!!!! i cant stand today...i cant stand being in the same group as a certain moron. It really annoys me to realise that once again i might have to take on more because she doesnt know how to fucking contribute. I agree. God has a bad sense of humour!

Sometimes, when no one looks, i have tears in my eye. I have no idea how I've been living, but the things i do for me to live are tearing me apart.It has to be this way. The pictures gone. The messages deleted. The memories forgotten. But every time i trried to forget , it somehow or another came back. And now Ive made it permanent. Deleted. Gone. But nothings' changed. I've forgotten and you come haunting me in my dreams. All i can say is 'what's new'? Let's hope That me writing this out will really put an end to this past and help me move on. Completely. How i take every next step , every single day, without breaking down to this pain , is still a mystery to me. And sometimes, when no one looks, i have tears in my eyes, streaming down my face, pouring out that pain.

Each player of this game starts off with five things they like about their bodies. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own the five things they love about their bodies as well. Start every line with "I love...". I assure you, you might just surprise yourself by how difficult it is to come up with this list.Please state the rules of this game clearly. At the end you must choose as many people as you'd like to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks.

1) I love my eyes.slightly almond shaped. slighty big and slightly brown.heh

2)I love the fact that my eye brows are thick . Neverhave to draw them in.

3) I love my hair. FRizy but long.

4) I love my nose!!!used to hate it but now ive seen worse..blueh.

5)I love my shoulders.. not to broad. not too thin...

Well, class ended...CS has ended..I'm stoning in class... I came back from KL This morning.It was fun seeing everyone there again. I'll be going back in another two weeks for my langkawi trip. Right now i don't even know who is coming.BLuek!. Anyway, I'm on a steady path to getting over someone.Which is good, because i like this feleling.Like i said in my earlier post, i think i like someone else, except ever since then, ive not seen him. Haha.This is the problem in a big school. He's a cute dude. Anyway there's UT tomorrow. I got 2 C's last week. This is the point where i tell myself " This is not good hema. you got to work hard. Have to prove them that you can make it big. Mostly you got to prove to yourself woman!"

ah. Nothing like a lil pep talk to get me up. But seriously, im not in the mood to collect C' or anything lower.

Today i say, bang bang BANG!

hmm... haven blogged in a while again. Anyway, I've found a new addiction, COUNTERSTRIKE. Damn that's a cool game. Had lots of fun playing it. Alone or with my dear W16b people.It rocks good. I love the game. I love it. I love it. I LOVE IT!!!

Anyway, its just one of the few things that are numbing my pain. But you know what, i think I'm over this guy, who I've liked for so long. Maybe I'm just getting over him, cause it still hurts sometimes but i think i might really be getting over him. I guess it will take a bit more time but yeah, I'll get there.

Anyway, school is good.But I've been feeling so alone lately. I cant find anyone to talk to or to b there for and tell me everything is going to be okay.I just feel so sad sometimes. Anything, i think i survived yesterday, purely thanks to wei chong. Thanks dude. I was so near breaking point but you came reminded me that some people are still there for me. Its nice knowing i have my old friends there with me and also this new bunch of friends I've found.Family is the in out kinda thing there might not be there when you're stumbling but they are always there to catch you.

Another thing i realised lately is that family is serious always there. No matter what you do to them. You can fight with them, bitch abut them, hate them and ignore them. You can even leave them all behind and run with you're friends. But when all this friends and everyone else leaves and makes you feel life is really not worth anymore, you're family is here always wiling to take you back with open arms.

life is weird.

life is crazy.

and i think i might like someone new. I don't know him well. I don't know him at all but there something about him that has my attention. and he's cute...in a way;)

Well, its been awhile since i last blogged. Hmm, well so much of things have happened since then. Some things that are just too painfull to talk about.Well the most i can do right now, is to just try and forget and live my life till things go back to normal.

Anyway, last friday i went back for SJAB.Finally saw sappy and jeya all after so long. Damn, i really missed slacking with them.But i still couldn't slack much with them. Had to entertain the little kiddies in SJAB. They where quite ok and livly them bee kim came. They are just like terrified of her. Had to have a talk with her cause of some freaking complain that arisesed about me as a instructor. But guess when that came up??.In febuary.About 6IX freaking months ago. argh.Nevermind nevermind.I not such a coward to run away from all this. Im going back tomorrow. Going to have a meeting about about the commitee.But i got to rush. Got to leave RP after presentation or as soon as i can.supposed to be there by 5.30.

Well, im stuck in class. Have been all this while.Now gotta listen to 6P's.Then later got debate. And i'm sleepy.

so fucked up.=(

my blood is boiling.im so fucking angry ryte now... what the fucking hell is youre bloody problem you bloody bastard!...evryone noes your a fucking smart ass...you dun need to ask question that dun even relate to our presentation to make u sem even smarter....sorry ure fucking royal highness...but i hope u get bitch slap for thinking ure such a smart ass...fucker to the core...

p.s...sorry fer being so vulgur to everyone cept for thats bastard.youre not even worth my spit.

C for comm... WTF?!?!
damn depressing...
gottta start working harder:(

A for computing....HUH???
seriously??
werid...its so upside down...