hiaz..i freaking pissed and sad...i always try to be there for you...but you dun seem to give a fcuk bout me...eveytime i try to talk to you bout something that upsets me , you tell me to shut up...i mean i really dun get your point...im suposed to be there for you but you only have to do that if its convienient??and why do you treat her word like the bible...if u dun like it , just say it...i mean this is about YOU...not about her...it should be what YOU want...you stood there letting her rant on and on and on and let her deepen the wond that was there til i ended facing a wall and crying my heart out...and even askin a friend to give me back whats long gone just to forget the pain....but did you care???...apparently not...i noe you were hurting too but why werent u even not fending for yourself...i noe you might hav expect to asked you wad was wrong and to tell you dont worry...but im sorry...im hurting too much inside and this wound is just deeper now...i noe every wound heals fast enuff into scabs...but this wound just keeps bleeding and bleeding deep..and this wound is in my fucking heart...it not just about you...but it is also about you...the way you make me feel that i dun matter...but really..do i even matter to you? or anyone...it doesnt seem like theres anyone there...maybe there just no one...thats why it feels like this.. maybe...just maybe there might be someone whu might just love me like she did...protect me like she did, care for me ike she did...i miss you ma...i thought i found someone like that...but i dunno...i never noe...