you know what...i know i say this quite often but i'll say it again...life's the pits... grr...really getting quite irritated... god , you have one hell of a sense of humour if your finding this funny... i just wish things could be different...i dont regret anything but i wish there was a difference...it really sucks you know,liking someone then getting your heart broken ...best part is that its not really the person who i like thats breaking my heart but me , myself breaking my heart by my own crappy expectations...sometimes i wish i nvr liked you cos its hurts alot but i also know that i wont be who i am if i did not... i know i cant move on... my heart just doesnt feel right to move on yet but if there the slightest chance that things could change , i'll take it in a second and move on... and if there the slightest chance that u wanna say something ,pls do...

i know one thing for sure,i'll nvr let this interferre wid me and my family or my studies...these two always , always have to have a greater priority that any guy will have in my life...

i know i haven even gotten my o's result yet but im hoping to go to a jc...and i know it wont be easy but if i do get a place there , i wanna work my ass off to get 4 a's for my a's...i just dont wanna do the same stupid mistakes i did this year... i gotta start thinking more logically and sensibly...i know its gonna be tough and definatly not easy getting 4 a's but those of you who think i cant , just shut the hell up...cos if u aint got anything positive to say to me then dont say anything at all...i know it'd be tough but im willing to work for it...

ah...going tekka now...

so... surprise me...